Ninomiya Kazunari's Point Of View
I was standing in front of my dead girlfriend's grave stone. I just found out that my girlfriend passed away a few weeks ago and I was in love with her twin sister, Hikari. I was confused. What was I going to tell Arashi, my girlfriend is dead and I kissed her twin sister without knowing it wasn't Naoko.
I messed up my hair and cried in front of Naoko's grave stone. I didn't even get to say my final good-bye to her. I loved her so much but why did she do that to me?
I slowly dragged myself back to my apartment. I was depressed and I got text messages from the guys. I ignored them. My heart was already confused and broken. I laid on my bed, thinking of the memories I shared with Naoko.
I suddenly widened my eyes. The letter that Hikari gave me. It was from Naoko. I quickly took it out from my pocket and opened it. I could smell the strawberry scent. She loved strawberries.
I opened it to see a short letter from Naoko. I guess she was sad while writing this letter. I could imagine her writing this farewell letter in her apartment. Trying to write about thoughtful and happy things.
Then I started to read the precious letter that my girlfriend wrote for me.
Dear Kazu,
I'm guessing my sister has revealed to you that she is not me. Gomen ne. For keeping my illness and my sister a secret. I thought it was good for you and me. I know you're strong enough without me. Look at you, you're a super star.
Please don't blame yourself. I want you to continue having a peaceful and happy life.
I've been keeping my illness a secret for a while. Before I met you, I knew I had this condition but I didn't expect to fall in love with someone who is like me. I always wanted to tell you but I was scared and worried. If I told you, you would concentrate more on me than your work.
Do you remember? When we first met at the department store. When I first saw you, I thought you were a stalker because you were wearing a baseball cap and sunglasses. A few minutes later, fate came along. You picked up my cake thinking that it was yours. We argued and then the employee told us that it was the cake I bought. You were embarrassed and apologized to me. I couldn't hate you because you had a weird expression on your face, when you found out about you being wrong. Those memories will be forever in my heart and soul.
I love you and you'll always be in my heart.
"Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice but falling in love with you I had no control over."
- Anonymous
Love, Naoko
I dropped my head to the floor. I started to cry. I held the letter close to my heart. “Naoko, why…?” I muttered. I was sobbing. I laid back on my bed and tried to wipe my tears away but every time I wiped them away, new tears would come out.
A few hours later, my tears had dried out. I was staring at my ceiling, every time I would think of Naoko, I would think of Hikari. I shook my head. This wasn’t the time to be thinking about someone else.
I heard my cell phone ringing. I slowly grabbed it and it was from a friend. “Moshi-moshi?” I said.
“Nino-kun! Do you want to go to a goukon today? I need one more person.” My friend said. I had to stop thinking about Hikari and Naoko. I guess I could start dating someone else to get my thoughts rid of them.
“Sure. I’m up for it.” I said. I heard my friend shouting. “Okay, well it’s starting now. Meet me at…”
~*~
I arrived at the goukon place. I was wearing a simple t-shirt, a sweater and jeans. I didn’t feel like dressing up to impress some girl. I had my cell phone, didn’t bring my wallet, my keys and my cards. I was ready for the goukon.
I walked inside and looked through the windows. Then I saw my friend singing an Arashi song. I smiled and giggled. I opened the door and I saw everyone squealing.
“Ninomiya Kazunari! KYA! I can’t believe it’s him! Why is he here?” I heard the girls talking to each other. I smiled and my friend came over.
“Hey, I’m glad you could make it. Take a seat or you could sing.” My friend said to me. I nodded my head and sat down beside a girl.
She was cute. Her hair was in braids, she had glasses and she looked like a person that was dragged along with her friends.
“Konbawa.” I said to her. She nodded her head to me. I cocked my head and picked up the karaoke instruments.
The goukon was loud and I wanted to take a breather outside. I walked in the hallway and found a bench. I sat down and sighed. I was still depressed over Naoko and Hikari.
Then I saw that glasses girl again. She was walking out of the ladies washroom. I smiled at her and she nodded her head to me.
“What’s your name?” I asked her. I wanted to flirt with her and try to open her heart to me. Instead of always her giving me the cold shoulder. I was a free man now. I don’t have a girlfriend anymore so I’ll be fine.
“Rika. Kitamura Rika.” She said in a quiet voice. I smiled and asked. “Do you know my name?” She nodded her head to me.
“Do you want to sit? It’s pretty hot in there.” I pointed to the karaoke room. She nodded and slowly sat down beside me. “Ano..Do you have a boyfriend because you look like a girl that has a boyfriend..” I said. I started to sweat. I shouldn’t have asked her so straightforwardly.
She shook her head. “I came here because I wanted to find one. But I couldn’t believe that you came here. I mean you’re an idol.” She said to me.
I giggled. “You finally spoke to me.” She giggled along with me. I was getting more comfortable with her.
As I started to talk with her, I kept seeing Hikari’s face on her. Why did I kept seeing her face? Why is my heart beating faster if I see her face? Do I love Hikari or is it because she had Naoko’s face? I was confused.
“Gomen. I need to go now.” I said to Rika. She nodded her head. She seemed sad. I was feeling guilty for suddenly leaving her but I knew it was the right thing for me.
I went back to my apartment. I was in a mess. I couldn’t stop thinking about Hikari. Why? Then I suddenly perked up. I had fallen in love with Hikari but how? I mean, she’s pretty like Naoko. She has a cute laugh, she is friendly and shy… Wait, did I just name off things that I liked about her? I don’t completely know her but I already like some things about her. Yes, I was in love with Hikari.
I quickly grabbed my phone and dialed Naoko’s apartment number. No one picked up. Darn! She's not in Naoko's apartment. Then I decided to call Johnny-san. I had to tell the truth to him because he was a close friend to Naoko. She would always talk to him when she visited the building.
“Johnny-san, umm about Naoko-chan..” I said. “I know.” He replied back. I was stunned. “What…Why?” I said and then suddenly he laughed. “You said the same thing that Hikari-chan said.” I giggled and said. “Do you know where she is? I need to talk to her.
“I think she is going back home. She is from Okinawa and wanted to spend her birthday with Naoko but…” I nodded my head. “Then Naoko died and she replaced her.” I interrupted him. He giggled and said. “I think she is at the airport now. You should leave now before she boards that plane.” I nodded my head and quickly left my apartment. I didn’t want to miss this farewell and I wanted to confess to Hikari that I loved her.
I walked inside and looked through the windows. Then I saw my friend singing an Arashi song. I smiled and giggled. I opened the door and I saw everyone squealing.
“Ninomiya Kazunari! KYA! I can’t believe it’s him! Why is he here?” I heard the girls talking to each other. I smiled and my friend came over.
“Hey, I’m glad you could make it. Take a seat or you could sing.” My friend said to me. I nodded my head and sat down beside a girl.
She was cute. Her hair was in braids, she had glasses and she looked like a person that was dragged along with her friends.
“Konbawa.” I said to her. She nodded her head to me. I cocked my head and picked up the karaoke instruments.
The goukon was loud and I wanted to take a breather outside. I walked in the hallway and found a bench. I sat down and sighed. I was still depressed over Naoko and Hikari.
Then I saw that glasses girl again. She was walking out of the ladies washroom. I smiled at her and she nodded her head to me.
“What’s your name?” I asked her. I wanted to flirt with her and try to open her heart to me. Instead of always her giving me the cold shoulder. I was a free man now. I don’t have a girlfriend anymore so I’ll be fine.
“Rika. Kitamura Rika.” She said in a quiet voice. I smiled and asked. “Do you know my name?” She nodded her head to me.
“Do you want to sit? It’s pretty hot in there.” I pointed to the karaoke room. She nodded and slowly sat down beside me. “Ano..Do you have a boyfriend because you look like a girl that has a boyfriend..” I said. I started to sweat. I shouldn’t have asked her so straightforwardly.
She shook her head. “I came here because I wanted to find one. But I couldn’t believe that you came here. I mean you’re an idol.” She said to me.
I giggled. “You finally spoke to me.” She giggled along with me. I was getting more comfortable with her.
As I started to talk with her, I kept seeing Hikari’s face on her. Why did I kept seeing her face? Why is my heart beating faster if I see her face? Do I love Hikari or is it because she had Naoko’s face? I was confused.
“Gomen. I need to go now.” I said to Rika. She nodded her head. She seemed sad. I was feeling guilty for suddenly leaving her but I knew it was the right thing for me.
I went back to my apartment. I was in a mess. I couldn’t stop thinking about Hikari. Why? Then I suddenly perked up. I had fallen in love with Hikari but how? I mean, she’s pretty like Naoko. She has a cute laugh, she is friendly and shy… Wait, did I just name off things that I liked about her? I don’t completely know her but I already like some things about her. Yes, I was in love with Hikari.
I quickly grabbed my phone and dialed Naoko’s apartment number. No one picked up. Darn! She's not in Naoko's apartment. Then I decided to call Johnny-san. I had to tell the truth to him because he was a close friend to Naoko. She would always talk to him when she visited the building.
“Johnny-san, umm about Naoko-chan..” I said. “I know.” He replied back. I was stunned. “What…Why?” I said and then suddenly he laughed. “You said the same thing that Hikari-chan said.” I giggled and said. “Do you know where she is? I need to talk to her.
“I think she is going back home. She is from Okinawa and wanted to spend her birthday with Naoko but…” I nodded my head. “Then Naoko died and she replaced her.” I interrupted him. He giggled and said. “I think she is at the airport now. You should leave now before she boards that plane.” I nodded my head and quickly left my apartment. I didn’t want to miss this farewell and I wanted to confess to Hikari that I loved her.
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